Search

Search has many definitions according to its part of speech. Search in this instance is a transitive verb. The best definition for the kind of searching I am talking about is to uncover, find, or come to know by inquiry or scrutiny. The best place to search is The Holy Bible! There are several translations and versions out there. The one I use most is the Amplified Bible, Classic. It is wordy to give each verse more description. It creates a picture in my mind as I read along.

Using the scripture above as a poetry prompt, I searched inside my heart to find what lay underneath the rubble of some breakage. I ended up creating a two-sided poem from opposite perspectives to reveal the struggle I found in my heart.

Perspective

I want my prayer to say
I know just where to start
I know to open my Bible
I want to open my heart
I cannot do it myself
I do not make it mine
I see the path before me
I try to walk the line 
Who goes before me now?
Who comes to save my soul?
What name do I cry out?
Only One can make me whole

I talk to Jesus every day
I ask Him to be my guide
I want His will, His way
I will not run and hide
I confess with my lips
I repent from my heart
Layers come off in strips
Heavy chains break apart
He renews all of my mind
He revives my body and soul
I am no longer so blind
He is making me whole

Recently, I wrote an additional poem on searching. I was prompted to write about where I felt burdened, invisible, and small. So I went searching in a familiar place of rubble in my heart that seems to be more hurt than whole right now. I started asking questions of myself because, as kids, that is what we were taught to do in our quest for answers. What I found is a voice to start the healing process. #looppoetryproject

Who, What, When, Where, Why, & How

I am only human 
I get stuck in my head 
Wandering without a plan 
Just waiting to be fed 
Who will save my life?

 I am only human 
Getting trampled every day 
My family does not see 
It hurts in every way 
What is all this strife?

I am only human
That's how I came to be
Hand sewn by my Maker
To be uniquely me
When did I lose my mind?

I am only human
Yet superheroes surround
This world created them
Giving them higher ground
Where did I become so blind?

I am only human
I have so many labels
Wife, Mom, Sister, Daughter
It's nothing like the fables
Why can't I see to do?

I am only human
I long to connect to You
To break down the barriers
To live with more do
How do I just be for You? 

I continue to search. Praise Jesus, I have mercies new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). I can get up, start the search all over again and find something new to breath life into my soul. My hope is to encourage richly and love deeply along my journey.